High Stress

For the past month, my stress level has been astronomical.  On a scale of 1 to 10, it's setting at a 9.  I am trying everything I can possible do to lower it.  Exercise, sleep, breathing, blogging, zen, just trying to eliminate the cause of the stress, being happy, not worrying about it.  Nothing is helping.

The main source of my stress is the project I am working on for work.  Truthfully, it is going pretty well but that isn't keeping me from being stressed.  I think it is just a little bit of everything that is causing me to be overwhelmed.

My end of year review was okay but wasn't anything to write home about.  Basically, I was told I was doing a fine job but nothing special.  My pay raise and bonus was only 3% which is pretty pathetic.  And, today, one of our team members was layed off due to not having enough work.  Which is bogus because we have way more than enough work.  If anything we should be hiring more people for our team.  So, justifiably, I am worried about how secure my job is and how much more of a work load is going to be placed before me.

I'm starting to thing I'll never not be stressed again and this will become the new norm.  Which is, quite frankly, unacceptable.  As much as I like my job and don't want to lose it, if this hostile work environment continues indefinately, I will have to look for employement someplace else.  When will employers learn to treat their employees with respect and that by doing so, they get better service from them?!!!  It really isn't that hard of a concept to grasp.

So much for 2013 being my year.

sigh.