Phase 2 - I should be proud...

But I am not. 

There are not too many people who can say they have lost over a 100 pounds.  And, the number of those people who can say they lost it all naturally is even lower.  It is a great achievement.  It is something I should take pride in.  But... I don't.  Not even a little bit.

I'm ashamed.  Ashamed that I ever let myself get that big in the first place.  Ashamed I had to lose it.  Ashamed I was a fat person at all.  I just want to erase all memories and proof that I was ever fat.  Once you go fat, you can never come back.  Regardless of your size, you will now always have the taint of being a "fat person".

And, I'm not pleased.  I am not pleased at all with my body.  I'm still very fat.  My butt, hip, and thighs are still huge.


Despite that, I'm still moving forward.  With only 10 more pounds to go, I decided to move into phase 2 while whittling away those last few pounds.  My plan, for now, is to take five, one-hour, weight or strength classes a week.  I just joined Gold's Gym on Friday.  I take classes Monday through Thursday after work and on Saturday morning.  Today will be my first class.  Right now, I can say I'm pretty sore.

So, to start out my new journey, I'm going to record my measures to see if I make any progress:

Chest - 29
L Arm - 12
R Arm - 13
Waist - 27 1/2
Hips - 37 1/2
L Thigh - 23
R Thigh - 22 1/2
L Cafe - 14 1/2
R Cafe - 13 1/2
Neck - 12
Butt - 41

Body Fat: 29.5%

I'll give this a month or two to see if I loss weight, body fat, or inches.  If not, I'll re-evaluate then.