A Lot of Thought

I've been giving it a lot of thought  these past few days.  I finally couldn't take it anymore and I told my boyfriend that we had a problem.  That I was afraid he wouldn't be able to meet my needs in a relationship.  He says it isn't a problem and when I come to visit in February everything will be alright.

But, you see, the problem isn't how he feels about me.  The problem is how I feel he feels about me.   And I cannot spend the rest of this relationship, I can't spend the next 3 to 5 years, being unhappy and feeling unloved except for 2 weeks every 2 months.  That is not what I want and it doesn't make me happy.

For a few days things got better and my boyfriend gave me a sweet nothing here and there, but it has since disappeared.  My love tank is empty.  I don't even have fumes left.  I have decided that when I visit in February, I am going to call it quits.

I love him.  I love him with all my heart and I think he is a good man for me.  I want to tell him I love him.  I know now that I will always love him, no matter what. I want him to love me back.  I'm ready to move up there.  I want to get engaged.  I know this is the man I'd like to spend the rest of my life with.  But, unfortunately, we are long distance and I don't think he feels the same about me right  now.  Given time, I think he would, but we have been dating for 2 years now and I'm 34.  I don't have anymore time left to give to a relationship that currently isn't making me even a little bit happy.

Why would you stay in a relationship, even if it has promise, when none of your relationship needs are being met?